This week, I’ve slowly and gently returned back to “my normal.” I’m sitting in my backyard right now, breathing in some fresh spring Jersey air. Last week at Write Doe Bay was amazing. I’m still processing it, but walked away back in touch with something I’d lost touch with over the years. As I’m thinking on all that, returning to my commitment to yoga has been an important immediate step. Yoga has never been a consistent part of my workout routine. Around 15 years ago, I’d occasionally go to a class here and there when I lived in South Florida – more enchanted by the rustic wood cabin where it took place than the class I was attending. I began to wonder over the last few months if it could be good for me as a next step in my fitness journey
In my earlier years of my practice, I never focused on my breath. The teacher mentioned it often – in every class. For some reason I assumed the real focus was on the various poses. When the same came up in my prenatal yoga classes, I still was focused on my body position – how flexible I was (or, more often than not, wasn’t) and how uncomfortable I was with my basketball-like belly. Down to the delivery room, where I forgot the one thing our mom group leader mentioned was so important in the birth process. With my attention not focused where it should be, I found myself with an oxygen mask on my face in attempts to get my breathing stabilized.
Just breathe.
It’s something my mom would always say to me. I can’t take a class without thinking of her. Without that reminder. I have it in countless texts. Two simple words that hold so much truth in them.
I started slow. In February, I did five classes. In March, 12. Most classes have only been 20 minutes and have been in the morning. I’ve taken a variety of types – morning/evening yoga, core, hip opener, lower body, twisting flow, heart opening flow, total body and power yoga – through Colleen Saidman Yee’s classes for Peloton Yoga.
I’m not going to lie. The first several days were a bit tough. My alarm would go off and I’d instantly start to convince myself that those last 40 minutes of sleep are the best sleep I get out of the entire time I’m in bed, so clearly giving this time up would not be wise. I’d push past that and make myself downstairs to our basement where I’ve set up a basement yoga studio of sorts.
For so long after my mom’s unexpected passing, I couldn’t sit still. I think in large part because I didn’t want to be surrounded by only quiet and my thoughts. I wanted to read, but couldn’t focus. I wanted to write, but nothing would come. Yoga has really helped me with all of this. Sitting in our basement with no more than a candle lit and the glow of my iPad, I committed to 20 minutes of being still. Of me, the quiet and my thoughts.
I used to think 20 minutes of exercise like this wasn’t worth it. Wasn’t enough. Now? Now it’s exactly what I need, and I can’t get enough. I miss it when I skip a few days, and I’m relieved when I find myself back at the mat. I’m working my way through other yoga apps and programs and will be doing more posts here to share what I’ve found during my journey.
What exercise helps you to reset? And are you on Peloton as well? If so, let’s connect (I’m SpinIt2DinnIt) and encourage each other.
Jayne says
I’ve never considered yoga before, but its something that I’ve been thinking about trying more recently. I might look for some apps, see what happens.
Kayla says
Thanks for sharing this! Thinking about yoga classes I’ve taken i think I am doing the same thing you used to -I’m more focused on my flexibility and holding the poses than I am focused on my breathing. Definitely something to be mindful of!
Lara says
It makes it an entirely different exercise with different results. I can’t believe it took me all these years to really let that whole breathing aspect to it sink in!
Channon Gray says
Sometimes it’s hard to remember just to stop a breathe, but it’s so important for our wellbeing. I’d love to get into frequent exercising, I think it could work wonders for my mind and self-confidence but I always use the “I don’t have time” excuse!!
Lara says
So easy to do! Before this I thought 20 minutes was too short to be worth the trouble. I’m surprised how wrong I was!
Tabitha says
Sorry for your loss. I also find that exercise helps when I want to be distracted. I loved when I did kickboxing, and I’m doing a 30 day challenge now. I’ve repeated it twice already, it’s great to feel you body change as your mind is focused.
Lara says
Exercise has so much magic to it. Kickboxing is such a great stress release! Some more high impact cardio is in my plans for the longer term.
GilletteMarlys says
Its always good to start small..great advice.
Lara says
Definitely – helps to make you feel more accomplished when the changes you’re making are easy to maintain and make into new habits.
Lara says
It definitely does have that effect – even more so in combination with proper therapy! In the midst of so much chaos, we forget how valuable it can be to just sit still.
Chloe says
Thanks for sharing! I need to remember to just breathe when I get myself all worked up and stressed c